Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Brotherly Love

OK seriously Bryant is always keeping me on my toes! He is so full of questions right now and very into helping take care of his brother. So today was filled with wanting to hold his brother ( brother can't hold his own head up yet so you can imagine how dangerous this is).  So you can clearly see little brothers eyes are bugging out of his head cause Bryant will not leave him alone! So today Mason wouldn't stop crying, I couldn't lay him down with out screams! Bryant says to me in a very serious tone, my brother is crying are you going to check on him? So I said well what is wrong with him and he looks me dead in the eye and says I'm sure he is hungry fix a bottle! This child is something else!

Now fast forward to bath time tonight! He pours an entire bottle of Johnsons Lavender Baby Bath in the tub with him! When I walked back in from dressing Mason I was like Bryant Oh no buddy what have u done and he said I tried to make bubbles, I am out of bubble bath. I said this isn't bubble bath its brothers night time soap that costs mommy a fortune! I said what will I do to give brother a bath now and he says very serious, call my mimi (my mom) she is very nice and likes to buy me things she will go to walmart tomm after work! I cracked up and said oh really and he says without missing a beat yeah just call her! WOW what a smarty pants! Now everyone knows I have been so miserable because Mason doesn't sleep at night very well. Well my saving grace has been a swing, the swing died it doesn't work anymore! :( You can imagine my disappointment! I am very interested to know how tonight will play out! Well I am pooped and more adventures await me in a few hours!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Why Mommy???

Bryant has asked me about 500 questions today! I am assuming we are going through a little phase and we are learning so mommy is trying to be patient, however, he is asking questions faster than I can answer them!Tonight as we were getting in the tub I got this series of questions...Mommy why did you leave me to go see Tony's baby at the hospital? Me: Well you wanted to stay with mimi. Bryant: Mommy why does mimi come over and always want to tickle me? Me: Well Bryant she is trying to make u laugh she has done it to me my whole life. Let's get you in the tub. Bryant: No mommy I still have to poop and pee first, Mommy why do you pee with a tootie? Me: Well bryant girls have tooties and boys have wee wee's. Bryant: Mommy why can't Mason get in the tub with me. Me: Well he is too little right now!

As you can imagine this could go on for hours! So after the tub I was in here couponing, my usual Sunday activity after I get the paper. He comes in and sits with me and says mommy I love you. Well I love you too Bryant. He then says your my angel and my best friend I love you 5. I am assuming 5 means ALOT! He then gave me the most precious kiss imaginable and said I'm going to bed with daddy turn that t.v. off and come on! I have days that I want to pull my hair out and days that he makes my heart melt. Children are so much smarter than I realized and you cant pull any tricks with Bryant. I am very blessed to have my boys and cherish my time with them. I know one day they will be all grown up and all I can hope and pray for is we stay close and have a wonderful relationship. I want to get myself or Mark fixed so there will be no more babies but I also feel like it wont be so bad after Mason gets a little bigger but man alive it is tougher having two than I ever imagined!

I thought that working a full time job and managing Bryant was rough, haha yeah right. I am up to my eye balls in laundry and cleaning and feeding and changing and cooking and bath time and wow it never ends and by the time I sit down check my facebook and blog and coupon, well Mason should be screaming anytime now to be fed again! I am exhausted not to mention I am trying to loose weight and walking an hour a day, I am making myself tired just thinking about how busy my days are. And whats worse, I am sitting in my living room looking at ten things I should be up doing! I'm not complaining (ok maybe a little) just venting some frustrations, I am very blessed to get to stay home with my babies. I wouldn't change it for the world!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

8 weeks and counting

Well here we are 8 weeks in to having two kids and wow is it more than I ever imagined! The sleep thing is so much better, the first six weeks were horrible, I literally thought it would never end. Now everyday I find a new obsticle to overcome. I have always been one of those people who heard kids screaming in Wal-Mart and thought gosh shut that kid up...Now I am the mom thinking this is so embarrassing, why wont he just act right for 5 minutes? It is so stressful to go out in public, Bryant is at that age where he wants everything he sees and asks a million questions! Don't get me wrong I understand he is just a baby still but sometimes he picks the worst times to decide to misbehave. I feel like everyone is stopping to stare at me. So next time you hear a kid being loud think of that poor mom and how she might be feeling!

I have started my weight loss journey, all those krispy kremes and snickers are a thing of the past...wait no they are still around my waist and thighs! I am now walking an hour a day minimum! The weight is not going anywhere! I am trying to be patient but I want it gone so bad it is becoming an obsession! I will go ahead and admit I have taken some desperate measures, I have been wearing shrink wrap and a girdle. I feel like a crazy person but I will try alot of extremes to wear my clothes again!

Being a mother of two is alot of work! I have to watch Bryant constantly to make sure he isnt hurting Mason because he has no idea when he is being too rough and Mason is so tiny. I feel like I never get things accomplished because as soon as I start something Mason needs to be fed or changed and Bryant needs something to drink, then he is hungry, then he needs to potty and wants me to pull his pants up and then the phone rings and someone wants to chat and then Mason wants to be held and WILL whine until you pick him up! Bryant is very smart and such a handfull! He is changing so much it is so scary to think about him growing up so fast! I still doubt myself as a mother every ten minutes and think should I have said that or done that? I think everyday I am messing up and will one day regret this lol! I always think should I spank him, is that him just being a kid, how do I explain this to him? I sit and ponder these things all the time but all I can do is pray that God will guide me to be the mother he wants me to be! Well enough for now, gotta sleep while Mason is asleep! God Bless!